life beckons
Just started work again a couple of weeks ago, which explains my long absence. It's been quite delightful being back at work, strange as it may sound. For one, there's no homework, and whatever time I have outside work is mine to keep. For another, I'm earning money. :) It's good to know one is financially independent. The holiday season is here to enjoy. I'm just happy that life for me is finally starting.
give me hope
it's strange when the things you most hope and pray that it's not true always turns out to be.. that all-so-familiar feeling sinks in when you realise that the probability of it being true is more than 50% and you're just dreading the consequences and implications of it... i wish sometimes God wouldn't make such a sport out of me.
In other news, hurray! My stupid exams are finally over! Wow, I can safely say that I don't have to take any more exams by compulsion. From now on, it's just work and work. I know this sounds insane but I'm looking forward to returning to some practical work tomorrow, instead of just mugging my notes for seemingly lack of any real purpose. Putting what I've learnt into real practice makes learning more alive, somehow. I just hope my body can adjust to the sudden change. Again.
work beckons once more
I'm halfway through my exams, gearing towards the second half. Strangely, I'm looking forward to the end of it, even though it means returning back to the workplace. It dawned on me that all my life I've been an academic, so to speak, reading, studying, researching, culminating to that very last moment where I throw up everything I know on to the paper just so I can look forward to a well-deserved holiday. And then when that ends, it's back to yet another cycle. With this being potentially my final exams, I really feel like this is the moment my life begins. Work will be my only companion from now on, and its consistency and somewhat predictability will allow me to re-organise my life around it to do the things I truly want. I mean, there are other interests/passions in life I want to pursue but not necessarily workable income-wise, so hopefully once I'm settled into a stable work regime, I have more time to do other stuff which will make me grow in the direction I hope to go.
