gah
what bitter news! i've been belabouring under the false impression that studying for exams is easier than assignments. i realise now my foolishness. the notes are copious! and i'm just grasping for air as i arrange my study schedule. there's nary a space to breathe. what's more, having read a sample assignment answer, i am now rethinking my supposed finished assignment. it would take more than a nose-job to get it fixed.
chop away
yay, yay, yay. i managed to cut the number of words for my essay from an exorbitant 1720 words to 1499 words, just nicely below the 1500-word limit. but having said that, i think in the process i have lost all logical sentence structure and flow of language, such that even i don't think i can understand my essay anymore. :( sigh, the price of brevity. i will need to do further repairs, but later.
me want dessert!
it's a lovely friday afternoon, the sun is out in full bloom. yet i am stuck in front of the laptop, struggling with this final assignment which fundamentally tests the existence of my conscience. :( hai, it's been a week of non-stop intensive thinking. immediately after the completion of my commercial practice assignment on tuesday, i have to work on my professional responsibility one which is due next monday. with only 5-6 days in between, there's really not much time to rest. i literally feel my brain heating up (which i suppose where the term "burning out" comes from) at the rigorous thinking i am subjecting it to. i need a break, desperately. maybe a nice scoop or two of ben&jerry's later will do the trick. it's time to chill. ;p
whizzing past
Finally, my comm prac assignment is over! What a wave of relief. Granted I don't know if what I've put in is sufficient, but at the very least I can say I did the best I could with it, exercising all possible sources of information within the very limited time given. Yes there's still another assignment left, but this one is slightly easier because the issues are clearer and the answers are found in a single location - the textbook. I hope I don't speak too soon though.
Just flipped through my timetable. The weeks are coming to an end so quickly. Time is flying by faster than I can breathe. November is approaching, and so is December. 2007, you're slipping through my fingers...
hold me tight
"I will never!
Be another!
Life that's given
To this world forever!"
Guard me jealously, hold me close, never let me go.
keep me well
I've been looking at my comm prac assignment ad nauseum, literally. When I think about it, I feel like vomitting. At first I was thrilled to be able to see the issues, but after a while, when I can't think of any other, it just became stale. I look at it now because I have to, and because I keep wishing something new will come up, which hasn't happened so far.
tougher training
gosh, i'm so tired. it's been a steady stream of assignments, one after another without much rest. and worse, the deadlines are spread in such a way that there's only a week in between, i.e. about seven miserable days to think, research, and write. clearly, this is unacceptable! i never had to do so much research and thinking within such a short span of time. is this the normal benchmark of the working world? and yet, at the same time, i'm truly amazed at my ability to produce some resemblance of a thought-out work. one often underestimates one's ability until it's pushed to the limit. of course, sacrifices are inevitably made (reduced socialising, reduced other thoughts, increased stress) but perhaps it's a conditioning that all minds have to go through to attain ever greater perfection and strength. once the mind is used to the harsher routine, things will naturally get better and easier. things can only get tougher from now on. brace myself.
outstanding work
I think the more time one has, the more unproductive one is. :( I had potentially the whole day to do work and catch up, and yet I spent most of it sleeping and watching tv. I guess when you have too much time, you just take it for granted that somehow or other, you'll get your work done, so complacency seeps in and inefficiency results. Sigh. Well, at least I know the coming weekend won't be unproductive, because I'll be making my annual trip to malaysia for my grandpa's birthday, so there's more motivation to get as much work done as possible before I leave. Funnily, it's almost as if the theory that things are treasured not because of its intrinsic value but of its scarcity is true. My dad has always said that salt is the most under-valued substance even though it plays such an important role in all cuisines simply because it is too widely available. Isn't that a sad truth? Sigh. Maybe I should start filling up my days with activities again, just so I can gain a sense of urgency.
my idea of rest
Yay, it's friday, and there's happily no school today! :) After a week-long of stressing about wednesday's assignment, I finally have time to wind down and take my much-needed breather. Gonna spend the day lazying at home, doing light work and overall giving my brain its requisite break. I know, I know, still two assignments to go and exams to prepare, but even easily-stressed people need to relax. Hai. What would I give for a dessert treat for my head? Hm... Maybe tussle my thoughts in a pool of delicious cold ice-cream. Heh.
vroom vroom
A fix of happiness a day drives any blues away. :) One assignment down, two more to go. Sigh. Once these two are over, I can look forward to happy times before the final exams strike. What a roller coaster ride I'm going through.
updates
I haven't written in a while, does that mean it's been a productive week? One can say so. :)
Being stuck behind slow cars is one of my biggest peeve, especially when I'm in hurry. Sigh. Seriously, they move at a mere 40km/h and when they approach a bend, they reduce their speed into such an incredulous crawl that I had to jam-break. And on expressways, don't drive on the first lane (i.e. extreme right lane) if you're going to be so slow! And don't suddenly reduce your speed until I almost kiss your butt! Sigh. Ok aside from all that, I guess I really need to alter my driving style such that I stay safe and healthy. My dad tells me that in driving, it doesn't matter so much that you're right, but to watch out for others' mistakes instead, because other people's mistakes could be just as costly. Bearing that in mind as I deny my human nature in driving.
On the upside, for my Criminal Legal Aid Scheme (CLAS) program, I was lucky enough to go to Changi Women's Prison to interview the charged person. It was an interesting hands-on experience, one that I probably won't get to do so anytime in the near future (unless something major happens). In the circles that I've mixed with, I would never hear of anyone thinking of committing a crime, and yet in another part of Singapore there exists such a group that actually contemplates these things, intentionally or otherwise. It changes the way we see people, that there are others who are not as fortunate as us. It really reminded me how important it is to know God and have God in our lives. Everything else will fall in place.
