dreams...
american movies are big on dreams. so am i. i've always wondered what i see myself doing in ten years' time, twenty years' time, etc. i wonder if what i dream so heavily about now will come true. i wonder if there will be crossroads in my life where i have to choose between two big dreams. i wonder if there is a purpose in the creation of my life, and whether i am meant to meet it. i wonder whether the steps i've taken thus far and am about to take will draw me nearer or take me away from that dream.life is such a mystery. there are so many permutations to the end. the job you choose, the people you meet, the experiences you go through, the books you read, the movies you watch, the places you travel to, the person you marry... each and every one of them play an important role in influencing the choices you make in life. some have a greater impact than others, but all nonetheless equally influential.
as i near the end of my pupillage, and embark on the real world for real, i wonder what other surprises life will throw at me. this afternoon i imagined myself working from now till 30 and then do a career switch to something totally different and new. but then i was reminded that at that age i would probably (God willing) be married, have a kid and paying off the mortgage on the house, so that's the worst time to do a career switch. sigh.
i know life's short, and there's so many things i want to do. yet at the back of my mind, one dream keeps recurring. it's as if that dream was the dream i was meant to do all along, and all the other things that i want to do are mere distractions, which are fun but ultimately frivolous and waste precious time and energy that i could have better spent it in fulfilling that dream. i don't know... if it's your will Lord, open the door/s for me.
posted by solitude @ 11:00 PM
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