lost
As I awoke from my afternoon nap, a strange combination of loss, loneliness and emptiness engulfed me. I haven't felt this way for a long time. I just lay there in cold, letting the hollow feeling slowly eat me away to self-pity. I found myself saying, my life is so meaningless. It's a sinking feeling not even to know why you're alive on this earth. There's just so much negativity and pessimistism within me; I can't get used to it.It's a result of myriad of factors - yesterday's outing, today's free day from school (from which I'm void of all human contact and therefore my feelings start wandering), and the perpetual uncertainty of my modules (which halts all work, and thus I don't have a concrete routine to ground me).
I hate feelings.
posted by solitude @ 3:23 PM
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