Saturday, April 08, 2006

this is it

Feeling stressed and lonely.
It's starting again, the cooping up of myself at home, my only company being words on papers and four walls silently staring back at me. The only air I breathe has been recycled by me for goodness knows how long. My mind struggles to focus, but it becomes a tiring exercise, and I lapse. I long for human contact, but I'm afraid to give in, lest it adds to another distracting factor. What a tussle. This hermitisation is robbing me of my basic human necessity - the company of similar beings. Will this reap its rewards in the end? I certainly hope so. I had my share of fun; it's time to pay the price.